From: dyanega@pop.ucr.edu (Doug Yanega) Newsgroups: talk.bizarre Subject: FTSD: Visions of Sugarplums Date: Wed, 01 Dec 1999 20:01:10 -0800 Organization: Univ. California - Riverside Lines: 136 Message-ID: <dyanega-0112992001100001@entmuseum4.ucr.edu> X-Newsreader: Value-Added NewsWatcher 2.0b27.1+ The audience of scientists and doctors sat in stony silence as a blurry image of Bugs Bunny cavorted on the screen to "The Marriage of Figaro". Major Jimmy Thomson was the only person in the room with his eyes closed, but the images dancing behind his lids were one and the same. It had taken almost three years for him and The Imaging Team to get to this point, but the recent breakthroughs with hypnosis had finally made it possible for him to get through an imaging session of more than a matter of seconds without breaking into chaos, and the assembled folks were deadly serious about this opportunity to examine what the fuss had been about. Deadly serious. They were all that way, all the years Jimmy had known them, from the day he'd awakened from what had seemed like just another bad migraine-induced blackout. They'd explained about the tumor they'd found, about the paralysis - even the piddling little dead nerve endings in his head and face that would probably never recover - about the kind of surgery they had in mind to eliminate the tumor for good, all deadly serious all the while. He never doubted that there were doctors in the military somewhere that had cheerful bedside manner, but he'd either never met one, or something about his situation led them all to just cut to the point. It didn't help that he was still a ranking Major, he supposed, as it tended to induce false politeness. Even the few jokes made the day the frame was bolted to his skull were forced and hollow, a transparent attempt to alleviate fears that Jimmy had conquered well in advance. He was ready for it. HE was deadly serious, too, ultimately. Things might have gone differently if he'd been allowed to recover normally from the surgery - once they were certain the tumor had really been obliterated, they and he might have relaxed a bit - but his falling into the hands of The Imaging Team only sent him headlong into another very serious situation. The various types of cerebral scans The Imaging Team had been using were only slightly more sophisticated than those in use in the nation's best hospitals, many of them for years. The computers that the military had at their disposal made the difference. Jimmy had offered yet another opportunity, that fit in nicely with some of the ideas they'd been having, in that the whole reason he'd needed to have the frame bolted on initially was to offer near-perfect stability and resolution while they mapped the tumor so it could be destroyed non-invasively with ultrasonics. That ability to get perfect resolution, and - moreover - get it time and time again, made him the perfect subject for their tests, which were impossible without precise replicability. Would he mind having the frame bolted on as long as the experiments took? Well, it didn't hurt, he couldn't move anyway, and it was naturally explained to him how important the work could be, and he hadn't gotten where he was without a strong sense of duty and patriotism. Of course he wouldn't mind. There were a few weeks of calibration, and the need for recuperation was minimal, but the real work began all too soon after the surgery. It started with the music. They found that pure tones generated easily replicable and interpretable results, so that phase was brief. The first actual piece, for whatever reason, was a recording of the Antal Dorati and the Detriot Symphony playing Strauss' "Also Sprach Zarathustra". They moved on to other things - "The Marriage of Figaro" was the second, at *his* urging, because it was one of his personal favorites, even if it always reminded him of Bugs Bunny in "The Rabbit of Seville". After that came Beethoven's Ninth, and then Rossini's "The Thieving Magpie", another personal request, and "The Nutcracker Suite". Jimmy was always kept in a soundproof room, with the headphones on, illuminated by a deep blue light. Everything was controlled, to minimize interference. The Imaging Team found that after a few clean sessions, they could distinguish which piece of music Jimmy was listening to, solely from the patterns on the cerebral scans. After a few months more, they eventually began to find the patterns within the patterns, the telltale signs that distinguished certain tones from others, the footprints of each instrument emerging from the noise, as they played and replayed the same piece, or variants of that piece played at different pitches, or by different orchestras. This was an arduous process, but it actually went smoother as Jimmy got more bored with the repetitions. It really wasn't long before they had the first crude feedback recordings - playing a randomly-selected piece of music for Jimmy, recording the scans, analyzing them, and using them to reproduce whatever music it had been. It was far from perfect, but it was *recognizable*. They had succeeded in listening in to the music in a man's head. Jimmy's head. There was no party, at least none that Jimmy was told about. There was also no press conference, despite the significance of the event. Things abruptly changed gear, though, as The Imaging Team started trying to get scans of Jimmy just *thinking* music - the headphones were off. It was another several months before they were able to get anything even marginally decipherable from these sessions, and a lot of software refinement was needed to get even that far. It didn't help that during this time Jimmy had begun to regain some use of his arms, because it was a distraction, and he needed a completely clear mind to get the best results. The Imaging Team took this as a sign to move on to a different thing altogether, or rather, split into two groups, one to explore ways to refine the "free-thinking brain" scans, and another to work on another dimension: speech. The progress here was amazingly fast, not solely because of the refinements in the software since the first phase, but also perhaps because everyone involved knew what to do and what to expect. In just a few months, Jimmy could dictate letters without speaking. It was at this point that he was interviewed - again without uttering a sound - by General Benton and the foremost of the military's neuroscientists, Dr. Froeschner. The level of interest in the project, and the security surrounding it, had maxed out. Within a week of the interview, Jimmy and another sub-group of The Imaging Team started in on visual images - Jimmy's eyes were open, but his ears were plugged. Progress here was slow, not helped at all by the physical strain on Jimmy's eyes, but when they added back the music at one point (the first sub-group had never stopped, after all), they had encouraging improvements. They naturally built on their strengths, using footage from "2001", "A Clockwork Orange", "Fantasia", and even "The Rabbit of Seville". Things were taking shape on the video screen used to interpret the scans of the manifold laters of Jimmy's visual cortex, things that became more and more recognizable as the months wore on. There were so many blobs and flashes and other visual "noises", though, that it was still difficult to make sense of things. That problem was tackled to a fair degree by the hypnotist, who was brought in by the head of the first sub-group, almost in desperation. Once in a trance, Jimmy's concentration was dramatically improved, though, and the results were easy to see. After two years and seven months, Jimmy gave his first free-brain audio-visual performance, recreating "The Rabbit of Seville", followed by brief vignettes from "Fantasia", and then - wonder of wonders - improvisational mental video and a short "Thanks for coming" speech, showing Jimmy as he saw himself, an Army Major in full dress uniform, straight and proud. None of the attendees would ever forget it. Two weeks later, The Imaging Team hooked Jimmy up as he went to bed, in an attempt to see, for the first time after all this careful, controlled experimentation, what a dream looked and sounded like. Jimmy woke the following morning with only the vaguest traces of what he'd been dreaming. He was more nervous than he had ever been through all the myriad tests of the past few years, and, almost shaking with anticipation, rolled his wheelchair into the main lab with the entire Imaging Team to watch. It was not long before it became clear to Jimmy that this was a bad idea. The images, as they began to come clearer, went beyond disturbing, into horrifying, distorted spasms of pain, brutality, grotesquerie, and perversity, often involving members of The Imaging Team, and soon had people averting their eyes and leaving the room, until someone stopped the show. Tears of absolute shame and humiliation streamed down Jimmy's face, and he was wheeled, weeping, back to his room. That night, Major Jimmy Thomson crawled to his window, managed to get it open, and plummeted like a steel-tipped dart to the concrete below. Doug Yanega Dept. of Entomology Entomology Research Museum Univ. of California Riverside, CA 92521 909-787-4315 (opinions are mine, not UCR's) http://insects.ucr.edu/staff/yanega.html "There are some enterprises in which a careful disorderliness is the true method" - Herman Melville, Moby Dick